Friday, July 11, 2008

end of an experience

On August 4th, I'll be coming home to Montreal. I've spent half a year in Florence (jesus, has it really been that long already?)

I'm happy, excited, sad, scared....all at once. I can't wait to roam the streets of Montreal once again, I didn't think I could miss a place so much...

I can't wait to go to dim sum with Kathryn and then roam around chinatown sipping on bubble tea, I can't wait to have a lazy Sunday-style brunch with Neel on a Tuesday morning, I can't wait to see fellow otaku Dennis and nerd that shit up, I can't wait to see Jeff and chill with him on a terasse or in a pub and laugh my heart out, I can't wait to hang out with Gael with a bottle of wine and a great video game or movie, I can't wait to go to Ira's place and predict cheesy movies, I can't wait to see Cas and have a ridiculously fun time at the karaoke booths, I can't wait to crash parties I wasn't invited to with Pat... I can't wait to go out with all of them and party until way after the sun is up.

Only person missing is...Liz. She moved to Toronto a few days before I left, and she's just signed a lease, so she won't be back for a while. It will be very hard not having her around... we used to call each other up and hang out, or talk on the phone and IM each other at the same time... It will be hard not having her physically around to support me while I continue to make mistakes and then freak out about them. I'll have to get a long distance plan or something!

I'll be leaving some people behind when I go... But I've finally realized that I have to be honest with myself: I've been lonely and depressed for most of my time here, and it's just not the place for me. It's a beautiful one, but the inside counts, and I don't feel attracted to Florence's heart anymore...she's not as understanding and unique as Montreal is.

In a few days (or knowing me, probably in about a week) I'll post up some of my pictures (which Sean has already seen on Facebook =p) and show you guys what I've been up to.