okay, NO

I have scrapped the post I put up this morning.

Only Gadfly knows what was in it (he was the only one who posted a comment)

I am over M. However, I'm jealous that he has found happiness with someone and that I have not. I'm envious. I feel like I lost the race. I'm not over the fact that I'm still stuck having to work my way through men until I find the right one.

But.

- I have my own apartment with my own stuff in it.
- I have the most fabulous best friend in the entire universe.
- Said best friend works at fabulous shoe store.
- I have dozens of friends who are thisclose to me.
- I have dozens of friends who are simply and most wonderfully just that: friends.
- I have fabulous shoes and bags.
- I can chug beer faster than you.
- I made my own Hab earrings.
- I can wake up, shower, dry my hair, dress and put my face on in under 25 minutes. AND look human.
- I can kick your ass at Halo and Halo 2.
- I have a network of blog-pals who have opened my eyes to many things.
- I have my aunt, uncle and cousin Gianluca in Florence who know me best.
- I have a wonderfully supportive mum, father and step-dad.
- I have an incriminating video of drunk Bailey from this summer.
- I am a karaoke champion.
- I have the best tone-deaf-sing-along-in-the-car voice EVER.
- I have a hilarious 13yr old half-brother who is now 5 inches taller than me and is threatening to pay me back for all the pranks I played on him.
- I can make you laugh.
- I beat up racist people if provoked.
- I beat up homophobes if provoked.
- I can eat 6 steamies in less than 5 minutes.
- I beat up Leaf fans just because I can and they deserve it.
- I do a pretty good Arnold impersonation.
- I'm learning Japanese.
- I have an incredibly annoying family, the members of which spend their days harassing the hell out of me and make me want to tear my hair out.
- I can blow a bubblegum bubble that's bigger than my head.

AND,

- I may have gained back the 6lbs I lost since January 1st, but I started off as a size 4. That's not big. It's below the average size. So =p

Gad, thanks for the shake up. You were off about my intentions & feelings, but absolutely right about the way I was acting. I have just come back from walking down & up again the 9 floors of my office building, and I feel terrific.


*Note* I took down the dramatic/mopey post, just in case some evil eyes see it