I'm stuck

I'm stuck.

I feel like I'm not growing, not progressing through life the way I should be.

I've decided to leave my job because it's slowly killing me. You know that quote from Office Space:

"So I was sitting in my cubicle today, and I realized, ever since I started working, every single day of my life has been worse than the day before it. So that means that every single day that you see me, that's on the worst day of my life."

That is how I feel. I go home and break down. I can't take it anymore. So I've decided to do something about it. I'm going to look for a part-time job (hopefully waitressing) and I'll save up enough money for 2 months of rent and my bartending course. Then I'll quit, do the course and try to find something in a bar for the next few months, just so I can save up for school.

I'll be doing this English program: English as a second language. I'm taking Japanese lessons. I'll hopefully be able to go to Japan and teach English for a little bit. It's the one country I've wanted to see my whole life... I've always been fascinated with the culture, history, etc.

So I'm going to do it. I figure, even if I work at Starbucks or something, a few nights a week, it won't kill me, you know? I'm willing to sacrifice my days off to make my ends meet.

Because right now, I'm starving to death.